Like a dragon that dwells within its den that awakens from deep slumber and a phoenix that rises from its ashes, I am finally revived. I have nothing but apologies to my readers because I left without notice and reasons, but I am now back for greater good.

I had never thought that making a decision is that hard and painful until now. All the while, I had been the one giving advices and guiding them to decide their future pathways at recom. Ironically, I am the one that needs enlightenment desperately: to accept matriculation offer or to fork out parents' money to study A-level. Yes, I turned down the offer to pursue Telecommunication Engineering under Electrical Engineering from Universiti Teknologi Malaysia (UTM) because this is not my desired course.

I was told by seniors to gather the pros and cons of both matriculation and A-level and make my decision based on where I would like to study at in future. After contemplating all aspects, I decided to challenge the less favorable road - matriculation. Since God intervened my initial plan and gave me this chance, I figured that it is better for me to grab it rather than feeling disgruntled that I will lose my chance to pursue my undergraduate study overseas, scholarships application, so on and so forth. One will never know what is at the end of the tunnel before he or she go through it and I believe that whichever choice I made, the light awaits me.

Also, I want to thank my friends that were willing to hear my thoughts and gave me some of their insights on the choices available. I really appreciate the advices you all gave me and it helped me a lot. As cliche as it may sound, nobody is a better decision-maker other than yourself. Be wise in making it and never look back after that.

Since many of us will be starting our college life soon, which some already did, I guess it will be good for me to dedicate a few posts to commemorate our special moments during high school. Special thanks to Leowanie for inspiring me to write this post through her Facebook notes:

#1 Prank for our class teacher, Pn. Moga on her birthday @ 5 Science 1 class

Its our beloved Mathematics and Additional Mathematics as well as class teacher's, Pn. Moga birthday! Shhh, don't let her know we are planning something behind her back. *Sneers* We "brainstormed" and decided to pull a prank before giving her a surprise party. What could be more interesting other than a heated fight between two hot tempered students?

Disclaimer: below is the author's opinion on political issue.

Okay, I know I am not eligible to vote yet and I will not make my stand on any parties but political fights are alway interesting: you can see how the candidates and parties go around having their campaigns to boast about their "goodness", brag about how they are going to change the place if they mandate and stab the back of the other parties and candidates. They can be so free to visit the whole Hulu Selangor before the election, pretending to care about the people's welfare to pull votes for themselves. However, after the election, their visits will usually be once in a blue moon or sometimes, none at all. Oh yeah, you can say they might be very busy but occasional visits are necessary to understand what people need. Papers don't talk, humans do. A few years back from now, I was perplexed when they said our country consists of political clowns. Now, I finally understood what they meant.

So much with asking the citizens to go green, save the environment, stop global warming so on and so forth, when the parties just go around and paste the picture of their candidates, logos of their parties at almost every where. You can spot their "advertisements" at every corner, wall, street lamps, wires and any place that they can put on to publicise themselves. Did they think they are that handsome to post their pictures every where to remind others about it? Or did they thought we came out from jungles to vote? Its not that we are foreigners that don't read newspaper or don't know what is the white-scale-with-blue-background logo belongs to which party. After the election, do they collect back those papers to recycle them? Hell yeah if I would not believe them, not even the slightest bit, even if they say they will because they are famous for their empty promises.

What do I like about having an election? Well, we can ask for money. And when I said ask for money, I meant a prodigious amount of money. The parties are very kind and generous during these times. You can hear them saying hundreds of thousands for this project, another hundreds of thousands for primary and secondary schools. How can we not admit they are generous? Every project will have extra budget, schools can be renovated, and you can have a chance to meet with all the Menteri Besar, and in this case, our Prime Minister. Oh yeah, our Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Najib visited Tanjong Malim today. Tomorrow, I might appear on the newspaper headline, so check it out! I don't mean to be so sarcastic but thats the truth. Everyone knows it and I am sure you have your own thought for this matter.

Well, thats all for now. Who do you think will win: the BN with Najib as its leader together with his so-called-1Malaysia or the PR with their we-will-do-what-BN-failed-to-do? We will see when the time comes. Cheers. =D

Last Saturday night, I attended a gathering with my friends. The original plan to have a BBQ session was cancelled and it was replaced by steamboat-cheaper and easier to be done. After having such a long holiday, it had finally coming to an end, especially for those that are going to start their Form 6 and some starting their A-levels at Tunku Abdul Rahman College. As for me, I will go for my matriculation first while waiting for my JPA. This might be the last time I will gather with you all! Farewell, my beloved friends.

What is written below is an edited version. Things that I do not feel like telling is filtered out, so that I still have room for privacy.

I am not saying that students that passed their examinations with flying colours are surely not excellent students. Neither am I saying that students that failed every subjects in their examinations are excellent students. An excellent student, to me, is a student that can balance his or her life well between all aspects of life and the attitude and personality of a person plays the vital role in determining whether one can excel or not.

Many students think that if they cannot do well in their studies, then it will be pointless to talk about other aspects in their lives. Therefore they only strive to do well in their examinations. Here comes the real thing: You do well in your examination. You score straight A+ in your SPM. However, have you ever thought about the fact that you are not the only one that got straight As in this examination? There might be thousands of students all over Malaysia that got the same result as you. What is the thing that differentiate you from the others? How do you want to outshine the others while you yourself only concentrate on your studies and neglected other aspects in your life? This is a question that many should ponder.

During my visit to Majlis Bandaraya Ipoh for my JPA interview, I met with many students which scored straight As. They are neither geeks that shut themselves up in a room to study nor they are bookworms that only read text books and do homeworks in school. How do I know, you may ask? A word from their mouth and you will know it straightaway. What comes out of their mouth is not any political issues or facts in the textbooks. They talked about games, sports, and even joked among strangers. They are people of strong personality and attitude - charismatic, great sense of humour, good communicating skills, friendly, sociable and of course knowledgeable, not to mention that all of them had great achievements in their co-curriculum. Inside the interview room, they are serious enough to handle the questions bombarded by the interviewers and they can answer well in almost every general questions - hot topics that were discussed recently in Malaysia as well as international news - asked by the interviewers. Their vast knowledge and eloquence in pouring out their opinions on these issues amazed me before making me realize what teenagers or even young adults nowadays lack of - knowledge of current news.

Well, maybe it is not that all of them are of that kind as I only know those that are in the same panel as me. Nevertheless, these people are those that I choose to believe as excellent students. That being said, it does not means that those that fail to excel in their studies have absolutely no chance to being excellent. There are some people in Malaysia that stigmatize those that failed to excel academically, without realizing the fact that they are also people that experienced failure before they succeeded. For this very reason, I find those that brand others without second thought utterly disgraceful.

Failing one time does not make that person a total failure for nothing remains permanent. One might fail today, but become a successful person tomorrow. Who knows? As long as a person try his or her very best in every thing he or she do, I am sure that he or she can excel and success will just be a few steps ahead of him or her.

Thats all for now. Meeting with those bunch of great guys during my JPA interview really inspired me to change for the better! =D

I have not yet:

1. get myself a clear folder to put in and arrange my documents,

2. fill in the borang pengesahan pendapatan ibu bapa,

3. get myself "current" with all the earth-shaking news/topics happened within 2009,

4. boost my confidence and prepare myself mentally,

5. really brush up my english and malay, orally

What had I been doing last week, you may ask? Lets see. I got my hair cut short, albeit I think the front part is a little longer than I wanted it to be; I got myself a full set of formal attire; I read through the newspapers even though I got little information from them; I asked the seniors and friends for advices. Thats pretty much what I did. To think back, I actually wasted a lot of time surfing internet which, now only I realize, is utterly pointless. Fortunately, I still have two more days to get myself well-equipped before I step up to front line and confront the "war".

JPA result is released today. Of course I checked mine and found out i got shortlisted for the interview. I kinda expected this outcome, but I am still quite grateful and of course excited for it. My interview will be held on 7th of April, 2pm at Ipoh, which is next wednesday. I got about one week to prepare for my interview. I am going to brush up my english and malay as well. I haven't speak and write in malay for quite a long time already. I think I am going to do some read up on recent news for both local and international. Maybe some articles will help too. Anyway, I want to congratulate those that got JPA interview. Lets work hard together to ensure we got this scholarship.

Well, that's all for now. I had been so busy these few days until I didn't have time to update my blog. I will try to update my blog when I am free again.

P.S. I'm sure everyone checked their result for JPA. Just in case someone haven't check it and wants to know where to check it, please visit http://esilav2.jpa.gov.my

Oh my god!!! I got a phone call from yayasan telekom. I still can't believe my ears when I heard him saying he was calling from telekom. Here's how the conversation goes:

Anyway, I will just wish all spm09 candidates all the best and good luck in getting your result. However bad or unexpected your result will turn out, don't let it undermine your indomitable spirit in pursuing your studies. After all, spm is nothing than just a more-important-than-usual-tests examination and one that succeeded in getting excellent result in spm might not succeed in his/her future. Well, thats all for now. I'm off to school to take my result!! Wish me tonnes of lucks yeah! :D

The result of the marching competition was anticipated. For the uniforms, KRS, as usual, won the marching competition. Meanwhile, the prefects won the other group. The only unexpected event was the librarian won the salute part of the whole marching competition which was usually won by prefects. So, I will congratulate all librarians that worked so hard in their training. Well done! At the end of sports day, the present KRS leader announced a jaw-dropping news - those that participated in the marching competition will be promoted to corporal. I couldn't understand the purpose behind his action and I find this notion distasteful. It was unfair to those that earned their rank through hard work. Anyway, its not my decision to make. So, I'll just leave it for them to decide. An advice from me, think wisely before you act.

Well, thats all for now. 5 more days only until I get my SPM result!!

Despite having the practice in the evening that already deprived me of my strength, I went through an unbelievable night. I was going to attend my friend's birthday party. Since I haven't got my car driving license and my parents are too preoccupied, another friend of mine came to fetch me and a few of other guys and girls from the town to the cafe. A supposed-to-be-5-minutes-ride turned out to be a 45 minutes ride! Here is what happened:

The "passengers" made a bet with the "driver". We challenged the "driver" to go KL and the "driver" accepted it. The first station was Kalumpang. The "driver" drove slowly and managed to reach the first destination. The next station: Kuala Lumpur. The "driver" bravely accepted our challenge despite being a P license holder for only one year. Of course the "driver" took highway since it will be faster. Being undaunted by other big cars, lorries and buses that drove along the highway, the driver actually sped through with a speed of about 100km/h. The first stop will be Lembah Beringin. As I predicted, Lembah Beringin looked just like a dead city. Cars and humans were rarely seen as we drove towards the one and only college located there, KYUEM. There were only trees along the street and also street lamps which were not working. The place was quite creepy. The brooding mist that immersed the place even made it looked foreboding. Okay, I know its a bit over-exaggerated but I can assure you that what I am telling you is mostly true. Then without us knowing, the entrance of KYUEM just appeared in front of us!! So, we took some picture as "proof" that we went there and head back. Yeah, thats all about our "journey to KL" and we never reached KL. However, there were debates regarding the reason the "driver" did not continue the journey to KL. We even nearly got ourselves involved in a car accident while arguing. Luckily, nothing happened. XD The most hilarious part of the journey is that we even stopped our car in the middle of the road before we reached the toll to Lembah Beringin to take some pictures since there's no car around. I must warn you, do not copy what we did as it will be a dangerous act. At the party, I had a delectable dinner. I even got a chance to play snooker at the cafe. It was our first time playing but I can see some of my friends really got the talent since they managed to score after a few times trying. Also at the same time, we met Diva at the cafe with Roushan. Diva just came back from Perth, Australia last Friday! They were the ones that taught us the ways to play snooker. Thanks yea! Oh, I just noticed that I wrote a long passage of craps. Hahaha!! :P

Disclaimer: What's written below is just my opinion. Don't read it if you don't like it. :)

Well, thats all for now. We still have one fortnight to enjoy our holidays before the starting of a really hectic life. So, enjoy yourself! :)

STPM results are released in this morning! I just want to say congratulations to all those STPM-ers that achieve stupendous result. To those that worked really hard but still cannot pass with flying colours, don't be disappointed, try to work harder in your studies later. Anyway, I wish all of them to succeed in their future endeavor.

SPM result date are yet to be announced by government. Nonetheless, the release of STPM result indicates the nearing date of SPM result date! For now, we'll just have to wait for government to confirm the date. Well, that's all for now.

I was supposed to take my car driving test today. At least that's what my car instructor told me before CNY. I trusted him but he lied to me. Yes, I did not take my test yesterday. I was told by my car instructor that I was not ready to take it. What the...? I really wanted to scold him at that time since its his fault for not teaching me car parking a few lessons before the test eve. Instead, he asked me to drive around Proton City, which is totally unrelated to the test, for a few lessons for unknown reasons. Yeah, I know he wanted me to master and get used to the whole driving thing but I don't appreciate his effort. I have plenty of time to practice after getting my license P. So, my test was delayed to March 10, which is 2 weeks away from now and whats worse is that I will be getting my result on the next day. I'll just have to wait for another 2 weeks which make it one and a half month since I first learned car driving. Arrrrr.... I'm really sicked of waiting! This whole delayed-car-driving-test-thing really vexed me but thats not the end of my bad day.

In the late afternoon, which is about 3pm, my mum came back from her work and scolded me for being lunatic and obsessed with my computer, again. Well, its not the first time, nevertheless, it still hurts me whenever she said it especially when she said that I didn't help her do house chores when I always do what she asked me to do and what I'm obliged to do. So, I just turned off the computer and went straight to do the house chores with a really bad mood. After doing all the house chores, I went to have my dinner. My dad was already eating by the time I sat down and started to have my dinner. While I was telling him the most probable result date, unbeknown to me the reasons, he just started to criticize my little sister's lazy and lackadaisical attitude in studying. I was really pissed off at that time. After doing all the work and feeling exhausted, I still need to hear all this gibberish stuff which is utterly useless for me while I'm enjoying my dinner. Then, like a bolt from blue, I heard my dad saying that he wanted to cut my internet line. NO WAY!! INTERNET IS MY LIFE!! Then he said he wanted to ban my TV into oblivion and cut all the telephone lines. Fortunately, he said he will only do so after I finish all my scholarship applications and college registration. This phrase really saved me from going into madness. So the dinner didn't went well and I have zilch appetite to continue eating. So, I'm off to prepare for the gathering which I will attend that night.

The only good thing that made me feel better is this gathering with my former POL teacher, Mr. Chong and my friends. I complaint and talked about all those bad things to my friends. I felt better after doing so. I really want to thank my friend who are willing to hear my ranting and grumbling and console me. I really appreciate it. The gathering was great as I had not met my teacher for quite a long time. There's a chinese saying "unfortunate events don't come alone" which aptly describes what I went through.

Well, thats all for now. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day for me. No matter how hard life is, we still have to move on...

P.S. I can't even help my friend to solve his love problem. I'm really a failure today... Sobz..

I feel a surge of desire. A desire to read storybooks! Yeah, I know it sounds crazy but I really feel like getting myself a nice storybook and sit down to read it. So, just now I went to my room and searched for any storybooks that I bought but didn't managed to read. To my surprise, there were actually quite a number of storybooks that I didn't read which I bought a long time ago. Well, its not only me that bought all of them. Some of the books were bought by my sister. So, I just piled them up and wait for tomorrow to start reading! I'd better start finishing them because I have a list of storybooks that I really want to read right now. ^_^ Speaking of reading, I really want to thank nickvl, a recommer that sent me a copy of Dan Brown's newest novel, The Lost Symbol. I'm a Dan Brown fan. I fell in love with his books ever since I started reading Da Vinci Code. His books are just too fantastic and I was fascinated by the way he plotted the stories. Despite the similar storyline, I actually liked all of his books. Thanks nickvl, I really appreciate it since this book is so expensive when it's released last year.

Beside reading storybooks, I found myself actually spending quite a long time playing piano pieces in these few days. Yiruma's piano pieces are my favorites. They're just so soothing and well played. I played a few of his pieces before, nevertheless, there're still some that I never heard before. So, I just spend some time listening to his pieces while surfing the net. What a genius to create such nice pieces! Hopefully he can make more piano pieces in future. Well, thats all for now. Gonna go bath and get some sleep now. I'll update myself next time. =)

Well, thats all for now. Any update on the real date will be announced in the newspaper as well as the news. I will also post it on my blog when the time comes. For the meantime, lets just wait patiently, enjoy our free lives and of course pray hard.

Enough of these pessimistic statement!! Its chinese new year!! To be honest, this year I have pretty good luck in gambling! I won pretty much money. Hahaha, at least this cheers me up. Hopefully this good luck will carry on until my result is out and continue for the rest of the year. I really hope I can secure a scholarship to prevent myself from adding more burden to my parents. Its about 3 more weeks until the moment of truth! Let's wait until then but before that, I will be having my car driving test on next Wednesday. Wish me luck yea!

P.S. I didn't mean to boast or offend anyone about the whole gambling thing. Just take it as a joke yea? :)

Happy CNY!!

Cute Tiger!! ^^

Not to forget Valentines day!

Speaking of V. day, of course there'll be lots of chocolate! =)

Its been very long since I got a haircut. From what I can recall, I cut my hair way back a few days before spm exam and that was more than 2 months ago. So you can imagine what my hair will look like: its like a small bush growing on top of my head. My sisters joked it as bird nest which really ticks me off. So, thats the story and reason I choose to cut my hair which I planned to cut it only a few days before I will get my spm result.

I went to the salon after having my lunch and as expected, its fully booked but I managed to squeezed into the barber's "schedule". After waiting for an hour, I found a chance when the man supposed to have his haircut went out for some shopping. So, I consider myself pretty lucky. Unfortunately, that was pretty much the only lucky part of this whole process. Before the barber started to cut my hair, I told her to not cut my hair until too short. I guess she was too busy that she misheard what I told her and continued with my usual schooling hairstyle which is the really short one. As I didn't wear my spectacles, I can't see the process of my hair cutting because everything looked blur. After cutting she asked me if I'm satisfied. So, I wore back my specs and saw this short "product". I was speechless, nevertheless, I never told her she misheard because what is done, its done. Even if I complained, it will be meaningless. After I went back home, I spent quite a while in front of mirror trying to find a solution to make my hair look not so short. Maybe I'll try to put some gel on my hair some other day. It'll be crazy and take a very long time as I never had any experience with it. >.<

So, it was another gloomy day for me. Luckily, my friends consoled me during the gathering session. Its good to see many of my NS friends back to TM!! Most of them became thinner and "darker". (Haha, no offence... ^^) This gathering most probably will be my only chance to see my NS friends as I will go back to Kedah for another 2 days and you all will go back to your camp when I'm back at TM. So, thanks for showing up yea. =) Okay, thats all for now.

Canon in D, a nice piece by Johann Pachelbel, is quite well known in the world of music. I'm sure almost everyone that played piano would've heard and played this piece. Recently, my online friend sent me a very soothing version of Canon in D. Since I was so bored at home, I decided to play this piece and also send it to my online friend for spending time chatting with me. So, here I am, posting this video to share with all my friends also. =)

Well, this is my first time recording myself playing a piano piece. I made many mistakes while playing it especially at the end part. Hopefully everyone can enjoy it and any comments will be appreciated. Thanks in advance.

Canon In D (C Major)

Busyness, define it. What I find most interesting is that I am not that busy in these few days and yet I felt I am somehow busy. Did you ever felt the same way and wondered why? Maybe my sisters' hectic life make me felt so? Ridiculous... So, I'll just analyse it why this phenomena happens in our life here.

To make my life less boring, I always try to make it busy. The easiest way is to engage myself in house chores. Yup, I do house chores for at least 2 hours per day. Its not too long but quite tiring. Then, I also attend car driving lessons. It only last for an hour but my feet will feel numb after the lessons. I started playing guitar recently and had a hard time pressing the string as it hurts my fingers. So, had you guys and gals noticed what is common for all these activities? Its TIREDNESS! You think you are busy because you are tired. Haha, I know I got you or maybe you just realized it now after reading my conclusion?

Despite all that, I still feel boring at times as there're not many friends in town that I can visit and talk with. I guess this is the time when online friends play their role huh! Well, thats all for now.

Yesterday, me and my friends went to a gathering at Easy Cafe. This event was announced a few days before as a "gathering" for us to chat but there's another purpose behind this event: we wanted to celebrate Emerlyn's birthday. Although its about one day before her real birthday, we decided to celebrate it earlier as most of us will be going to work at that day and that includes herself. At the cafe, we waited Emerlyn to order her dinner before giving our gifts as we know she won't eat if we give her the presents before she order her dinner. She received 3 presents from all of us.

After we finished our meal, we went to Secret Recipe to buy a slice of cake for her before going to Yee Ling's house to continue our gathering. At her house, Yee Ling suggested us an activity: the one which celebrates birthday first in this year will feed the second one, the second one feeds the third one, so on and so forth until the last one feed back the first one. Well, the game started off weird but its much fun. As we progressed, Yee Ling herself tried to hide herself so that she will not have to eat the "remains" we left. After much pursuing, she ate a little of the cake left. Thanks to Yee Ling that we had an unforgettable and enjoyable moment that night. Haha... ^^

This will be my last time gathering with Ho as he will go to Sunway to work with Eik Eik. Nevertheless, we will meet again in March when the spm result is out. Well, I would like to wish Emerlyn an early happy birthday. May your wish comes true! Cheers~

P.S. Emerlyn, I know you knew we will celebrate your birthday on that day but can you guess we there are 3 presents for you? Haha!

A few days ago, I came across an advertisement about an Accelerated Japanese Language (AJL) Study Camp which is organized by UNITEN (Universiti Tenaga Nasional). This is a 2-months program starting from 1st February until 26th March 2010. Based on its name you can know that it is an intensive program and it offers full scholarship to students all over Malaysia that wanted to further their studies in Japan. This idea intrigued me as I always liked anime and manga. Also, Japan is definitely a good choice for me to study engineering beside Germany and France, that is if I'm given a full scholarship. I'm not rich enough to go abroad with my family supporting me.

At first, I thought of going there to learn and play at the same time since I was so bored at home. However, things started to change when I browse through uniten website to get the application form. The schedule is so hectic that it does not have ANY holidays at all including the CNY week!! To add to that, I don't have any cell phone and laptop in my possession now. This will reduce my communicating ability albeit normally there will be computers provided by the university. Another problem I encountered is that I haven't get my school leaving certificate which it requires me to make a copy. I will pay a visit to my secondary school to get it, that is if they already prepared it beforehand. If not, this might be the reason I gave up on this idea. If I succeeded getting into this study camp, I might not get a change to take my own SPM result when the time comes and I might lose the chance to apply for various scholarships offered prior to the release of SPM result which usually last for only a week. I really need these scholarships if I fail to secure the one offered by AJL.

Choosing to go or not to really bothers me a lot in these few days. What am I supposed to do? With the dead line coming really soon, I have to make up my mind whether I want to take this challenge and risk or just continue with my relaxing life for another month until my real SPM result is out.

Life's all about making choices. I hope I will make the correct one and will not regret it later in my life. God bless me.